The answer is within. I believe it is just a matter of having your own “eureka” moment(s). I’ve been through a similar process of searching as you and my desire for answers slowly but surely brought them to me, at unexpected times and from unexpected sources. I would recommend going about your day and not thinking about your issue too much. When you get that flash of inspiration- and I’m sure you will- write it down.
Part of the reason I started this blog was to write down my many flashes of inspiration that just appear out of nowhere, while I’m going about my day. My phone is filled with notes as well, all of which bring me more clarity moving forward in my own life.
The great thing about those messages from within is that they are tailor-made for each of us. They make sense to us in a way that no external voice can. That’s because they are messages from ourselves, from our own being. So I would recommend not pushing so hard for external answers and allow them to come from within whenever it is perfect for them to do so.
Your question rises from a sense of separation, which can only occur when you have not fully connected with the core of your being. Don’t worry though, because you are on the right path. Don’t allow your mind to attempt to rush the process. You will experience some understandings that allow you to understand what I’m now saying a little more clearly. Trust that your desire is working and allow the answer to that desire to come with no expectations on how you think the answer will look.
One thing I will say is that you are not looking for things to do, as much as you’re looking for a state of being. You say you want to be passionate, so be passionate. It is a state of being you are after, and that state is only found within. Once you are that state, you will automatically find that many of the so-called mundane aspects of life, that you previously found mundane, will resonate with you on a different level, and you will enjoy life that much more. You cannot do passionate, you can only be passionate. But once you are passionate, your actions will automatically reflect that passion, in everything you do.
Don’t allow your mind to get in your way by letting it come up with a concept about what you think your life needs to look like before you can be passionate, as you say you want to be.
The passionate people of our world are passionate about everything, from making love to preparing a meal. They are passionate about the clothes they wear and the books they read. They cannot help but be passionate about everything because passion oozes from their being.
One last thing. You are obviously desirous of being a passionate person, so why not make that your passion? Why not be passionate about creating yourself as a passionate person? You are creating yourself in every moment in any case. Become passionate about that creation. Dive into the act of creation. Dive into understanding yourself. Dive into the choices you make every moment of every day, and make them consciously! You are creating yourself over and over, and that is all you’ve been up to anyways. So be passionate about that creation. Become engrossed in choosing your thoughts, your words and your actions. Passionately create your ideal self and then let the rest fall into place.
Hope this helps! I’m pretty satisfied with that answer as I was pretty passionate while writing it!
Have a wonderful day :)